The Organiser In Me

As part of my Preparation for my College Course of 'Life Quality and Design' I have been working through the Structured Processes of: The Ideal Scene, Wheel Of Life, Energy Leaks Inventory, Procrastinations Task Completion Sheet - and now time to look at Adrenaline.   

Reading about Adrenaline from an excerpt from 'Take Time For Your Life' by Cheryl Richardson is helpful.  "Various types of fuel give us energy needed to take action.  Some fuels are better than others.  For example, energy that comes from exercise, nutritious food, and the love and support of great people fuels you and supports your long-term health in a positive way.  Other energy sources such as adrenaline, caffeine, sugar, and anxiety may fuel you in intense bursts but ultimately put your health at risk." 

"Adrenaline is produced by the adrenal gland which regulates the body's fight-or-flight response to stimulating experiences.  These experiences can be positive and negative.  When you're late for an appointment and you hit a traffic jam, the rush of anxiety you feel sitting in the car is adrenaline.  When the deal you've been working on finally comes through, the excitement you feel also comes from adrenaline.  Adrenaline isn't bad, but when we develop habits like constantly running late or juggling too many projects at once, it gets us into trouble."

I take the Adrenaline test to see if this is fuelling me, by answering the following questions:

- Do you constantly overcommit yourself personally and professionally?  NO
- Do you double-book social engagements?  NO

- Are you usually late for appointments?  NO more than YES (I have been Consciously working on this to Honour others by Honouring appointments)

- Do you repeatedly check your voicemail or email throughout the day? Voicemail NO Email YES

- Is your schedule so full that there's no time left for you?  NO

- Do you feel lost without your beeper, cell phone, or laptop?  NO (Not anymore)

- Do you put things off to the last minute or use tight deadlines to get things done?  NO

- Do you find yourself in frequent conflicts with others?  NO

- Do you usually speed when driving?  NO

- Does it seem like your car's fuel gauge is always on or near empty?  YES

- Do you hate to stop and ask for or read directions?  NO

- Do you live on the edge financially?  NO

- Do you always feel pressed for time?  NO

- Do you put off making decisions or taking action in spite of the anxiety it causes?  NO

- Does the thought of being bored make you nervous and uncomfortable?  NO

- If the phone rings as you're heading out the door, do you answer it anyway?  NO
- Do you wake in the middle of the night with your thoughts racing, unable to sleep?  NO

- Do you juggle several projects at once?  NO
- Are you constantly coming up with new ideas to pursue? NO

- Do you often forget to follow through on commitments?  NO

I read that if I answered 'YES' to five or more questions, this would mean that I am running on adrenaline.  "These behaviours generate the constant hum of anxiety, and this anxiety pumps adrenaline into your body."

It comes as no surprise to me that I am not running on adrenaline - and I am still glad to review the questions.  It is a helpful guide for me and my Coaching Clients.  Since I was made redundant in February 2010, I have Consciously made Choices to allow Space in my life.  As a result I feel a lot more relaxed and peaceful.

This is the second time that I have read these notes, and an area that does resonate with me, and has triggered new Awareness and Behaviour is - "Start arriving fifteen minutes early for every appointment you make.  This one action can have a dramatic impact on the adrenaline cycle... you're able to arrive early and relax beforehand.  Give yourself room to breathe."  This is the only time when I feel that rush of anxiety, when I am rushing for appointments.  And I am now Conscious of Honouring the time of others by making sure that I am on time for appointments.  And I am also planning to bring into habit the practice of being fifteen minutes early for appointments.    

Apart from my rush to appointments, I do feel relaxed.  And while I have allowed the Space and have been enjoying more Space, I now feel that it is time to bring in more of the Yang Organised and Planned Part of me.  I feel I have some big Goals and I need to be doing more.  This is not to suggest that I want to be running on adrenaline - this Activity has helped highlight to me what I do not want to change.  It also highlights to me how much I have changed over the years - I remember the time when I couldn't get to sleep since I had so many thoughts racing through my head and when I used to have so many Commitments that I was so stressed and anxious.  Hmm... I am definitely enjoying being in a more relaxed and peaceful state.

As I have been studying and learning about Archetypes I am now trying to get to know The Organiser In Me.  I am wanting to create order, take full responsibility and be a leader of my life and enjoy Success of my Goals.  

I read that the Role of the Ruler/ Organiser is "to blend the other Sub-Personalities into a continuous expression.  The Ruler/ Organiser makes the decisions to leave something and start a new (enacted by the Destroyer and the Creator).  The Organiser decides who will do what in order to ensure the completion of the Goal in a timely manner."

I really want to embrace The Organiser In Me.  I have a sense that if I make better use of my diary and make lists and try to take Steps every day towards my Goals, then this will serve me well.  I know that I need to bring in more of my Yang and yet I do not want to be too Planned or Ordered or Controlled or take up all of the Space with a tight schedule.  I still want to allow my Intuitive Yin to guide me.  

I am wanting The Organiser In Me to help me with my Business, and also to continue being more Organised at home.  I also want The Organiser In Me to make sure I am making time for Meditation, Yoga, Walking, eating right - so that I am getting the best kind of energy that will support my health in a positive way.

I enjoy reading in 'The Dark Side Of The Light Chasers' by Debbie Ford "There is nothing wrong with faith.  There is nothing wrong with affirmations.  But at some point you must take the Next Step.  Make a Commitment to have what you want in life and then make a plan to get it.  It's there waiting for you but most likely it won't fall into your lap.  If you want to know whether you're serious about changing something in your life, ask yourself if you have a plan of ACTION.  If the answer is no, go back and see if you're really committed to achieving your Goal.  A plan of ACTION ought to be written down on paper.  If it's only in your mind it may be more of a Dream than a plan.  Plans in our minds tend to get lost or forgotten, or pushed aside by everyday life.  Tell yourself you'll have more of a chance of achieving your Goal if you have it written down and keep it at hand."

It is time for The Organiser In Me to get my Creator Archetype and Sage Archetype together and start writing down my ACTION Plans.

Everything Is Possible

The main reason I love writing my Blog, THE reason I write my Blog, is that it offers the opportunity for Self-Reflection of my me, my day, my Journey.  Self-Reflection is important to me.

The last couple of days I have begun opening up to receiving the messages of my Dreams.  I have also became very interested in Dreamwork - I like what I read on Wikipedia - "Dreamworking differs from classical dream interpretation in that the aim of Dreamwork is to explore the various images and emotions that a Dream presents and evokes, while not attempting to come up with a single, unique dream meaning. In this way the Dream remains 'alive' whereas if it has been assigned a specific meaning, it is 'finished' (i.e., over and done with). Dreamworkers take the position that a Dream may have a variety of meanings, depending on the levels (e.g. subjective, objective) that are being explored.  A tenet of Dreamwork is that each person has his or her own Dream 'language'.  Any given place, person, object or symbol can differ in its meaning from Dreamer to Dreamer and also from time to time in the Dreamer's ongoing life situation. Thus someone helping a dreamer get closer to her or his Dream through Dreamwork adopts an attitude of 'not knowing' as far as possible."

I like the idea of keeping the Dream "alive".  At 10.40pm last night, I had another insight regarding my dream from two nights ago - I remember that my ex-lover never saw me as the one for him, that he was on the look out for someone else - and I have a sense that this could be the part of me that is looking outside myself for answers, or wanting me to be different rather than fully loving and engaging with myself.  Perhaps this is the message from my Soul that it is time for My Self to love me, choose me.  

When I wake up this morning I have a recall of another dream from last night.  I remember riding a bike, a shiny new green pushbike.  

In the dream I remember having a brief moment where I am loving riding my new bike.  And then I remember getting to the railway station and I am rushed and I am racing to get a ticket so I do not miss the train.  And the train is waiting for me and I rush and buy a ticket and then I am asking them to wait for me and then I jump on the train.  Once on the train, for a moment I feel relieved... and then I look out the window and realise that I have left my new, shiny green bike on the station and I just left it there - I know it will not be the same or still be there when I get back.  I am disappointed, sad.  I feel helpless that I am now on the train.  As I write these words, I realise that I was sad as I cannot go back to that moment.

This Dream is "alive" for me.  This is not about me rushing to get somewhere or missing a train.  For me this dream speaks to me about enjoying the now, enjoying the new parts of me, enjoying that I am a new Coach, enjoying this Journey, riding my new bike, not trying to get there sooner by jumping on a fast train - perhaps this is one way to look at this Dream.  There is the feeling that the shiny, new, green park is one of my Sub-Personalities and that I should not just disregard or discard or reject this part of me.  As I write these words, I have a remembering that yes I am a New Coach, and yet I am trained and I have so much to give my Clients.  I just have to be myself, what comes naturally to myself, I just have to be me.  My Clients who come to me have been sent to me by the Universe, by God - the all knowing - yes, I am a New Coach and yet I am here to love and serve and Spread The Yellow to my Clients.

I have been enjoying bringing my Yin Feminine and Yang Masculine into Union, into their Power.  My Yin and my Yang are my Strengths and Resources.  By being in touch with all Parts of me, I feel that anything and Everything Is Possible.  I feel very Inspired to help my Clients gain an Awareness of their own Yin and Yang, and develop all Parts of Self to help them bring their dreams into ACTION.  In my heart I believe Everything Is Possible - and my greatest wish is that the Coaching Process can help my Clients gain a sense of this truth.

I have been reading a lot about Self-Esteem and Self-Love.  I love this book 'The Everything Self-Esteem Book' by Robert M. Sherfield.  The Process of getting in touch with my Yin and Yang has helped me experience a wonderful feeling of Self-Love.  I love this image - almost like my Yin and Yang coming together.

   

I love these quotes 

- “Love yourself first and everything falls into line.” Lucille Ball quotes (American radio and motion-picture actress and comedy star, 1911-1989)  

- “To love oneself is the beginning of a life-long romance.” Oscar Wilde quotes (Irish Poet, Novelist, Dramatist and Critic, 1854-1900)

I now feel that this is such a HUGE area where I would like to work with my Clients - helping them Love Self and Love Life.  From a place of Self-Love, I have a sense that Everything Is Possible!!  I have a KNOWING.

I LOVE THESE WORDS (that I find on a beautiful Blog) -

http://www.abundancetapestry.com/how-to-love-yourself-in-17-ways/

“I am Me. In all the world, there is no one else exactly like me. Everything that comes out of me is authentically mine, because I alone chose it — I own everything about me: my body, my feelings, my mouth, my voice, all my actions, whether they be to others or myself. I own my fantasies, my dreams, my hopes, my fears. I own my triumphs and successes, all my failures and mistakes.

Because I own all of me, I can become intimately acquainted with me. By so doing, I can love me and be friendly with all my parts. I know there are aspects about myself that puzzle me, and other aspects that I do not know — but as long as I am friendly and loving to myself, I can courageously and hopefully look for solutions to the puzzles and ways to find out more about me.

However I look and sound, whatever I say and do, and whatever I think and feel at a given moment in time is authentically me. If later some parts of how I looked, sounded, thought, and felt turn out to be unfitting, I can discard that which is unfitting, keep the rest, and invent something new for that which I discarded. I can see, hear, feel, think, say, and do. I have the tools to survive, to be close to others, to be productive, and to make sense and order out of the world of people and things outside of me. 

I own me, and therefore, I can engineer me. I am me, and I am Okay.”

Denis 2005 Virginia Satir quotes (American Psychologist and Educator, 1916-1988)

From this place of Self-Love, I see the beauty in me, and I see the beauty in the world.  I feel I am in Connection to all things - I am all things - I am the birds singing, I am the leaves blowing in the breeze, I am the beautiful, fragrant, precious red rose.  I am the beautiful flower in our garden. 

I also love the words from this Blog -
http://www.abundancetapestry.com/how-to-love-yourself-in-17-ways/

- "Fall in love with yourself. Think about what makes you You. Just like a flower that needs watering to grow, learn to nurture yourself in every way. Love yourself for all the good that you see and accept your flaws and the fact that you are imperfect. This does not mean that you do not learn to change from your shortcomings; instead, you are being gentle and kind to yourself despite all your “flaws”. Look in the mirror and fall in love with the reflection that is You."